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The Process Of Self​-​Becoming


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(Lyrics by O.P.) A clown in a transparent delusion of omnipotence Scratch the surface and find an ugly brat Gnawing himself in endless shame A spouse who places trust above everything As long as it feels nice Then she leaves and trusts someone else An elitist waiting for the “new dawn” And the collapse of human values Is always the first to hide and betray What am I But a prison of these reflections? As soon as I open my mouth I become what I despise I can´t trust even myself But hatred and loath are poor companions I would just like to live without this But somehow it never even begins
(Lyrics by O.P.) I nurture a trauma in my past A challenge never faced I let it haunt me for it makes The contingent feel necessary Each one is a center of his own Whoever coined the idea of oneness Was not a man of great faith First there is multiplicity And only then the need to reduce it I always make it for sure That I won´t satisfy my dreams For it´s better to live in grief Than to face the disillusion in all success
(Lyrics by Shoo) Heed the cries of a moron He claims a debt for his misery May the seven descend And bring him justice There are two kinds of people Idiots and those who lie And so may it be the latter Betray even some signs of conscious thought The truth is either terrible Or terribly boring Satan whispered my ear The world is flawed, you do better I am the cosmocrator Of a reality more real than truth That of mine, full of misery Of my own choosing
(Lyrics by O.P.) I turn my sight from the fruitless negation To the ideal that was too fearsome to face I turn my gaze judging others To my own principle of action What sense was there to think That an ideal should come along in flesh and blood? And if it somehow did What would there be left of its loftiness? I turn the consuming flame of hatred Into nurturing heat of the inner of sun And the coldness of despair To calmness in my striving Is it not faith in the idea Which gives energy to its denial? Fear rather than hardness That mocks fragility? Yet in all I face an insurmountable barrier No matter how I try, it is hardly a glimpse Of what I absolutely ought to be And there´s no longer the solace in misanthropy
(Lyrics by Shoo) I stand before the great enemy That cannot be beat or be fathomed Not humbled, not kneeling down But surrendering, just the same To have led a life of Great and horrible deeds And yet subtly flawed Pride escapes my thought For it is for the destitute And the very poor alike There was just pain And work to be done Utterly unable to transcend The limits set by the coarsest And the finest of materials The thought-matter of man The depth of being Lies not in our power But in the power of Satan in man
(Lyrics by O.P.) Like a point in the continuum There is nothing constitutive in me I am nothing but absence My presence is pure shame Nothing to be done Yet nowhere to rest I have given everything But that which gives always remains Every day is like waking to a dream It does not feel real But it´s ruthlessly there
(Lyrics by Johannes Nefastos and O.P.) The golden egg made whole by its shattering Pride consummated when I touch the ground With my feet, with my hand, with my mouth and my forehead Here is the mirror that was lost Beyond the colourless rainbow Not God, but Me in God Taking the serpents from His mother's hands You are the final stream of beginning The fire of the last and first question Coiling, twisting, straight omnipotence of a god-child The play, the stage, the brightness



4-panel Digipack CD, 16-page booklet with lyrics and track-by-track commentaries

Undoubtedly one of the finest Finnish black metal bands, VERGE feature musicians that play or have played with other esteemed underground acts like Charnel Winds and Saturnian Mist, among the others. Thanks to their previous works – two fascinating full-length albums and a few splits – VERGE have proved to speak a unique black metal language that bends the misanthropic roots of the genre to their will and to their progressive music vision, uncompromising and highly original like most part of Finnish metal.
VERGE's third and most mature release is titled “The Process of Self-Becoming” and is a concept album “loosely based on philosopher Sören Kierkegaard´s theory of existence stages”, as the band explains. “Each song has been written from a particular subjective existential stance and the crisis it inevitably faces.”

Divided into three chapters – Aesthetic, Moral and Religious – and graced with precious lyrical contributions from Shoo (Charnel Winds) and Johannes Nefastos, “The Process Of Self-Becoming” is an extremely ferocious work, yet a deeply meditative one, and it perfectly captures the wavering, tortured nature of its philosophic contents and existential dilemmas. The violent assaults of “The Decision Beyond Calculation” and “The Pride In Despair” dissolve into some of the most intense rock-oriented guitar solos ever heard within the context of a black metal record, thus emphasizing the continuous struggle between reason and doubt, while the tremendous final bacchanals of “The Bedrock Gives Way” and “Grounding in the Unground” seal the album with majestic crescendos and dramatic words: “Not God, but Me in God / Taking the serpents from His mother's hands / You are the final stream of beginning / The fire of the last and first question.”

When the echo of the last notes dies out, there it begins our process of self-becoming, a difficult quest towards illumination... where illumination rhymes with damnation.


released September 15, 2017


O.P. - Vocals, pump organ
A.K. Lead guitars
K.L. - Rhythm guitars
O.K. - Bass
M.H. - Drums

All compositions by O.P.
All arrangements by Verge

Recorded, mixed and mastered by Tom Brooke of Tonehaven Studio in 2016
Pump organ recorded by V. Lahti
All photography by Maija Lahtinen
Art direction and layout by Francesco Gemelli

Cat. Nr. IVR082


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